what if. what if. what if. what if i had gone for it? said what i wanted to say? did what i wanted to do? what would it have looked like in an alternate universe where i didn't let fear hold me back?

i had a dream last night, and the three of them were both there, as if tormenting me, reminding me of their existence, and how i cannot reach them at all.

i took 30 minutes to order something on a menu. there's too many options in a lifetime, all leading down different paths. sometimes i really wish i had a gut feeling to follow.

i've got the strangest feeling..this isn't our first time around.
this song has been stuck in my head on repeat, because it plays on the ideas of previous lives. if such a thing were to exist, i think i would like to know the past lives I'd lived, but at the same time, that would overload my headspace even more.